Sunday, June 12, 2011
Saturday, June 4, 2011
A serious conversation with myself.
That interview the other day did not go so well. You know what was interesting though? My credentials are there... 3.93 GPA and work experience with data entry. But you know what wasn't? My heart. When the interviewer grilled me on my interest in finance and investments, I struggled to talk about anything recent in the financial news. I realized after that day that I really wasn't interested in working for a financial or investment company. The interest, the passion simply wasn't there. So of course, I had to seriously reconsider my options and set sail for a new course in my future.
What better way than talk to someone who knows me best?
Inner-me: Yo. You there woman?
Me: Oh hey sup. I'm just being depressed over my interview, etc etc.
Inner-me: You are an idiot.
Me: What? Why? I studied so hard to ge-
Inner-me: That is bullshit. Studying hard doesn't automatically mean you will get a job in an industry you hate. How did you feel waiting outside that building? Were you excited? Or... scared?
Me: ... Okay fine. Maybe I wasn't as enthusiastic as I could have been but-
Inner-me: Actually, you weren't enthusiastic at all. From what I saw, you seemed to not want to be there. You wanted to leave. It wasn't right for you. Admit it.
Me: I... fine. You are right. I was scared. I hated the environment. But I still made myself walk through that door for some reason. I tried so damn hard to convince myself that it was right for me but... it really wasn't. This isn't what I want to do with my life.
Inner-me: Then why did you apply? Tell me. What DO you want to do?
Me: I don't know what I want to do... I want to work for a gaming company, a tech company, a design company... or a digital media company. Ok? You happy now?
Inner-me: So no finances?
Me: No. Not really. There's no creative outlet. I also kinda don't want to work from 7am to 9pm 7 days a week. Money = It's not worth my sanity.
Inner-me: Okay... so there you go. Apply for the jobs you can see yourself actually doing. Stop B/Sing yourself. You are so narrowminded... what makes you think you have to do business stuff just because you got an econ degree? Go with your heart... success will eventually follow.
Me: Geez. You are so blunt. But thanks for knocking some sense in me.
And that was that. Inner-me (aka rational thinking me) won once again. It's strange how this is how I solve my problems.
What better way than talk to someone who knows me best?
Inner-me: Yo. You there woman?
Me: Oh hey sup. I'm just being depressed over my interview, etc etc.
Inner-me: You are an idiot.
Me: What? Why? I studied so hard to ge-
Inner-me: That is bullshit. Studying hard doesn't automatically mean you will get a job in an industry you hate. How did you feel waiting outside that building? Were you excited? Or... scared?
Me: ... Okay fine. Maybe I wasn't as enthusiastic as I could have been but-
Inner-me: Actually, you weren't enthusiastic at all. From what I saw, you seemed to not want to be there. You wanted to leave. It wasn't right for you. Admit it.
Me: I... fine. You are right. I was scared. I hated the environment. But I still made myself walk through that door for some reason. I tried so damn hard to convince myself that it was right for me but... it really wasn't. This isn't what I want to do with my life.
Inner-me: Then why did you apply? Tell me. What DO you want to do?
Me: I don't know what I want to do... I want to work for a gaming company, a tech company, a design company... or a digital media company. Ok? You happy now?
Inner-me: So no finances?
Me: No. Not really. There's no creative outlet. I also kinda don't want to work from 7am to 9pm 7 days a week. Money = It's not worth my sanity.
Inner-me: Okay... so there you go. Apply for the jobs you can see yourself actually doing. Stop B/Sing yourself. You are so narrowminded... what makes you think you have to do business stuff just because you got an econ degree? Go with your heart... success will eventually follow.
Me: Geez. You are so blunt. But thanks for knocking some sense in me.
And that was that. Inner-me (aka rational thinking me) won once again. It's strange how this is how I solve my problems.
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