Computer Upgrades...

Every 2-3 months I'm going to upgrade a part of my computer to make it a little less crappy.

This month: CPU Fan (COOLER MASTER R4-BM9S-28PK-R0 Blade Master 92mm Case Fan) $10.99
Priority Level: HIGH

Next month or the month after: USB Card (BELKIN Hi-Speed USB 2.0 5-Port PCI Card Model F5U220v1) $26.99
Priority Level: Medium

New Graphics Card: (Radeon HD 4670 or better) $69.99
Priority Level: Low

RAM upgrade: (G.SKILL Ripjaws Series 8GB (2 x 4GB)) $44.99
Priority Level: Low

Jay Chou (周杰伦) - Mine mine lyrics (English Translation + Pinyin)

Jay Chou - Mine mine (Pinyin + Translation)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BvQX2Spog4s

English Translation by me

Please give credit if used

(the last part that is Taiwanese is not 100% accurately translated.. sorry!)

*** I do not plug the lyrics into a translator...! I translate all by hand. I'm a 3rd year Chinese American college student taking advanced level Chinese. ***

沒有妳的生活

Mei you ni de sheng huo
My life without you

我開始寫小說

wo kai shi xie xiao shuo
I began to write stories

好多畫面好多靈感

hao duo hua mian hao duo ling gan
With many pictures and much inspiration

我要把稿費都給妳

wo yao ba gao fei dou gei ni
I give the proceeds to you

巷口不小心經過

Xiang kou bu xiao xin jing guo
I have carelessly passed through an alley

妳的車子依舊停在紅線

ni de che zi yi jiu ting zai hong xian
Your car is still parked at the red light

幫妳繳罰單

Bang ni jiao fa dan
I helped you pay the fines

妳叫我別管

ni jiao wo bie guan
You told me to stop caring

我才想到我們已經分開

wo cai xiang dao wo men yi jing fen kai
Then I realized we are not together anymore

想起那一個夏天

Xiang qi na yi ge xia tian
I thought of that one summer day

那不是那不是那是冬天
na bu shi na bu shi na shi dong tian
No, no it wasn’t, it was a winter day

想起妳生氣的臉

Xiang qi ni sheng qi de lian
I thought of your angry face

每天就像冬天...唉，唉，唉

mei tian jiu xiang dong tian… ai, ai, ai
Everyday is like a winter day… sigh, sigh sigh

妳說那是愛，愛，愛

Ni shuo na shi ai, ai, ai
You said that was love, love, love

誰該堅強起來

Shui gai jian qiang qi lai
Who should toughen up?

月亮還是太陽

yue liang hai shi tai yang
The moon or the sun?

是誰遮了誰

Shi shui zhe le shui

Who should cover for who?

是誰都會依賴
shi shui dou hui yi lai

Whoever it is would still depend (on the other)

妳說已分開

Ni shuo yi fen kai
You said we’ve already broken up

什麼還要幫妳撐傘

wei shen me hai yao bang ni cheng san
Why should I hold the umbrella up for you?

Coz baby you are Mine Mine
Mine Mine Mine Mine Mine
Mine Mine
Mine Mine Mine Mine Mine

太快

Tai kuai

Too quickly

就承認我真的很想妳

jiu cheng ren wo zhen de hen xiang ni

I admit that I really miss you

會不會沒有男子氣概

Hui bu hui mei you nan zi qi gai
Is it because I am not manly?

You say Bye Bye
Bye Bye Bye Bye Bye
Oh Bye Bye
Bye Bye Bye Bye Bye

拆開

Chai kai

Open it up

我的心隨妳看

wo de xin sui ni kan
My heart is for you to see

滿滿的都是愛

man man de dou shi ai
It is full of love

我的眼皮跳一下

Wo de yan pi tiao yi xia
My eyelid jumped

代表你在想我

dai biao ni zai xiang wo
Meaning that you are thinking about me

我的耳朵癢一下

Wo de er duo yang yi xia
My ear itched

代表你在講我壞話

dai biao ni zai jiang wo huai hua
Meaning that you are speaking bad about me

我沒這麼不好吧

Wo mei zhe me bu hao ba
There’s nothing bad about me

不用跟朋友說吧
bu yong gen peng you shuo ba

You don’t need to tell your friends

如果以後和好了, 看到妳朋友不是很尷尬
If we can make peace, it wouldn't be awkward when I see your friends

想起那一個夏天

Xiang qi na yi ge xia tian
I thought of that one summer day

那不是那不是那是冬天
na bu shi na bu shi na shi dong tian
No, no it wasn’t, it was a winter day

想起妳生氣的臉

Xiang qi ni sheng qi de lian
I thought of your angry face

每天就像冬天...唉，唉，唉

mei tian jiu xiang dong tian… ai, ai, ai
Everyday is like a winter day… sigh, sigh sigh

妳說那是愛，愛，愛

Ni shuo na shi ai, ai, ai
You said that was love, love, love

騙誰 我說的氣話都收回

Pian shui wo shuo de qi hua dou shou hui
Who am I lying to? I've taken back all my angry words

我寫的小說根本是空白黑夜

Wo xie de xiao shuo gen ben shi kong bai hei ye
The stories I write are actually black and white

你說既然已分開 為何還要幫你撐傘

Ni shuo ji ran yi fen kai wei he hai yao bang ni cheng san
You said since we've broken up, why should I hold the umbrella up for you?

嘜嘜 你嘜擱嘜擱偷偷離開

Mai mai lu mai go mai go thau thau li khui
Mine mine, don't you go, don't you secretly leave

嘜嘜 你嘜擱嘜擱偷偷離開

Mai mai lu mai go mai go thau thau li khui
Mine mine, don't you go, don't you secretly leave

嘜驚　我不會放你一人治那

Mai kiann wo bu hui pang ni ji rang di na
Don't be afraid, I won't leave you alone here

你想祙有人靠有人會疼

Ni xiang mei you ren kao you ren hue thiann
You want someone to rely on, to love you

嘜吶　你雨傘雨傘趕緊打開

Mai na li hoo suann hoo suann kuann kin ta khui
Don't stay, open up your umbrella quickly

嘜吶　你雨傘雨傘趕緊打開

Mai na li hoo suann hoo suann kuann kin ta khui
Don't stay, open up your umbrella quickly

嘜鬧　落大雨你淋雨我艱苦

Mai nau loh gua hoo li lim hoo gua kan khoo
Don't fuss, if you get soaked by the rain, I will feel hurt

落大雨我沒你會艱苦

Loh tua hoo gua hoo li e kan khoo
When it pours outside, it will hurt without you here

Coz baby you are Mine Mine
Mine Mine Mine Mine Mine
Mine Mine
Mine Mine Mine Mine Mine

太快

Tai kuai

Too quickly

就承認我真的很想妳

jiu cheng ren wo zhen de hen xiang ni

I admit that I really miss you

會不會沒有男子氣概

Hui bu hui mei you nan zi qi gai
Is it because I am not manly?

嘜吶　你雨傘雨傘趕緊打開

Mai na li hoo suann hoo suann kuann kin ta khui
Don't stay, open up your umbrella quickly

嘜吶　你雨傘雨傘趕緊打開

Mai na li hoo suann hoo suann kuann kin ta khui
Don't stay, open up your umbrella quickly

嘜鬧　落大雨你淋雨我艱苦

Mai nau loh gua hoo li lim hoo gua kan khoo
Don't fuss, if you get soaked by the rain, I will feel hurt

落大雨我沒你會艱苦

Loh tua hoo gua hoo li e kan khoo
When it pours outside, it will hurt without you here

會艱苦 x5

e kan khoo
It will hurt

...

My heart.. it's confused. Stop confusing me.

A serious conversation with myself.

That interview the other day did not go so well. You know what was interesting though? My credentials are there... 3.93 GPA and work experience with data entry. But you know what wasn't? My heart. When the interviewer grilled me on my interest in finance and investments, I struggled to talk about anything recent in the financial news. I realized after that day that I really wasn't interested in working for a financial or investment company. The interest, the passion simply wasn't there. So of course, I had to seriously reconsider my options and set sail for a new course in my future.

What better way than talk to someone who knows me best?

Inner-me: Yo. You there woman?
Me: Oh hey sup. I'm just being depressed over my interview, etc etc.
Inner-me: You are an idiot.
Me: What? Why? I studied so hard to ge-
Inner-me: That is bullshit. Studying hard doesn't automatically mean you will get a job in an industry you hate. How did you feel waiting outside that building? Were you excited? Or... scared?
Me: ... Okay fine. Maybe I wasn't as enthusiastic as I could have been but-
Inner-me: Actually, you weren't enthusiastic at all. From what I saw, you seemed to not want to be there. You wanted to leave. It wasn't right for you. Admit it.
Me: I... fine. You are right. I was scared. I hated the environment. But I still made myself walk through that door for some reason. I tried so damn hard to convince myself that it was right for me but... it really wasn't. This isn't what I want to do with my life.
Inner-me: Then why did you apply? Tell me. What DO you want to do?
Me: I don't know what I want to do... I want to work for a gaming company, a tech company, a design company... or a digital media company. Ok? You happy now?
Inner-me: So no finances?
Me: No. Not really. There's no creative outlet. I also kinda don't want to work from 7am to 9pm 7 days a week. Money = It's not worth my sanity.
Inner-me: Okay... so there you go. Apply for the jobs you can see yourself actually doing. Stop B/Sing yourself. You are so narrowminded... what makes you think you have to do business stuff just because you got an econ degree? Go with your heart... success will eventually follow.
Me: Geez. You are so blunt. But thanks for knocking some sense in me.

And that was that. Inner-me (aka rational thinking me) won once again. It's strange how this is how I solve my problems.

The day

... I can look in the mirror and actually see something of myself. I hope it comes soon.

I'm still in the process of looking for an internship. Have an interview next week sometime, and hopefully it will be smooth sailing from there. I hate how every time I see myself, I see a scared little girl who's barely out of high school, let alone out of college. I miss the days of saturday morning cartoons, of waking up late, of reading comics and manga, of being able to wear anything I want without being judged (when I can wear tshirts and baggy hoodies and people won't question my fashion sense).

I miss being me. It's not that I want to stay a kid forever though. I love the academics/learning/intellectual side of being an adult, but I hate everything else that comes with it. Politics, science, psychology, business and finance all fascinate me. Relationships (for the love of God, this is just scary), networking (...even scarier), fancy parties (what if I say something stupid!), and all of that stuff make me want to run the other way. I would love to be able to hold a job that lets me do all that nerdy finance/econ stuff but without all the repercussions associated with a career in business. /sigh

Did I ever tell you that...

;)

Ah sleep. I missed you so very much. My dark circles are finally going away after weeks of hardcore cramming and energy drinks. I look normal once again.. haha. My summer will look like the following:

- Work... nearly fulltime each week. Derp.
- Games to play/finish: A crapload that I still need to list.
- Shows to watch/finish: See above ^
- Learning flash/html/css. I have the books and all.
- Review two semesters of Chinese material since I skipped grades and still feel lost.
- Read every single issue of "The Economist" that I subscribed to since January but never got the chance to read.
- If I get to it: Buy a keyboard and learn piano~

I think I will separate the posts in my blog between actual serious stuff and personal off the record blurbs such as this one. Murrr.

Arnold, his scandals, and why I frankly don't care

One of the most discussed topics today is Arnold Schwarzenegger and his lovechild scandal, where he supposedly had an affair with his live-in maid and had a son with him like ten years ago. Granted that he is no longer governor, this recent incident along with the scandal surrounding the director of the IMF (where he supposedly raped a maid in a hotel), only contribute to the growing distrust of politicians among the general public.

But the question I propose is: Is it worth all the fuss? Do the characters and morals of politicians reflect on their ability to do their job right? Refer to the following quote I once read:

It is time to elect the world leader, and your vote counts. Here are the facts about the three leading candidates:

Candidate A
Associates with crooked politicians, and consults with astrologists. He's had two mistresses. He also chain smokes and drinks quite a few martinis a day.

Candidate B
He was kicked out of office twice, sleeps until noon, used opium in college and drinks a great deal of whisky every evening.

Candidate C
He is a decorated war hero. He's a vegetarian, doesn't smoke, drinks an occasional beer and hasn't had any extramarital affairs.

Which of these candidates would be your choice? Decide first.















Candidate A is Franklin D. Roosevelt
Candidate B is Winston Churchill
Candidate C is Adolph Hitler

Surprising, is it not? Although two of the leaders mentioned helped create and pushed forth what we know as the modern world, they honestly do not possess the characters that we idealize and place value into, but it does not make them any less of a leader. I'm not saying, by any means, that we should vote for cheaters, womanizers or people of poor character. But if given a choice between a person who has shown they are vulnerable and suceptible to flaws, but will run a country right, versus a good law-abiding, so called 'God fearing' politician who is screwing up our country behind our backs, I have to say I'd pick the first one.

Rather than focusing our attention on personal relationships that read more like celebrity rumor mill stories, we need to focus on the events that would really impact our lives. I find that Arnold's situation is pretty much private business that should be left to the parties affected, especially since he's no longer in public office. Though y'know even if he was still a governor, I really can't cut Arnold any slack, considering that he played a role in pretty much screwing California over. So sorry Arnold, you are in a lose-lose situation. At least during the Clinton years we actually ran a few budget surpluses...

And as for the IMF guy... Rape is a criminal offense (as opposed to a moral offense). So if found guilty, I hope justice will be brought to you. That's that.